Thanks!! Other than subtle little remarks here and there, not a whole lot in the conversation front. Then again our work schedules really only allow us 1 whole day out of the week together. Most of the time we get roughly a hour a day to spend with each other. As for the self bondage thing, I came clean with her about that with the feminization thing. She knew I was really into bondage in general well before that.copperfox wrote: 1 month agoI feel like a big congratulations is in order…this is great to hear! I’m thrilled to hear that your wife is not only “unbothered†by it, but it sounds like she’s been enjoying seeing this side of you as well. What kinds of conversations have you had with her since then? Maybe she can help you with your online shopping (perhaps she might have some recommendations or things she would like to see you in)? Have you “come clean†with her in that, yes, you do lots of self bondage and enjoy dressing the part? Obviously, I don’t know your situation—but if she’s okay with your feminization kink (and apparently lots of others!), then it doesn’t seem like she would react any differently to learning more about that (other than just making sure that you’re safe, which is completely reasonable). Again, congrats…I know this is probably “weight off your shouldersâ€, as it were.illest wrote: 1 month ago A update to this one, I've been super sloppy with my escapades lately, to the point my wife definitely knows about my feminization kink now. At this point I'm not sure how much of it was unintentional and how much of it was kind of wanting to be found out. Last month was quite a bit of mistakes on my part. The biggest one however was her discovering my false mink eyelashes on the nightstand beside our bed, which I couldn't play off. So I came clean, like showing her pictures clean. Which she had a laugh but as far as any changes and from what she told me she seems completely unbothered by it.
And for the last week our relationship has been normal... ...for now. Even though I feel she smacks my ass a little more often than usual and makes cutesy references towards me more frequently. Guess I'll see whether she opts to use this knowledge to her advantage or not. Other than a joke where she asked me if I wanted her to dress like a man(which I immediately shot down) it hasn't come up again. Though now that she knows I can do my online shopping for it less shamefully. Now that it's not some big secret between us I don't feel compelled to "purge my collection" every so often. My only concern now is how deep I go into this thing and how complex of a individual it's turning me into behind closed doors.
As for your concern on “how deep I go into this thing and how complex of an individual it’s turning me intoâ€â€”I wholeheartedly share this exact sentiment! I’m of the opinion that as long as what you’re doing is safe, consensual, and doesn’t lead to your kink turning into an obsession or addiction (in that it doesn’t begin negatively affecting your life), then most anything should be fair game. Enjoy the ride of self-discovery…however wild a ride it turns out to be.
The more conversations I’d had with people, the more I began to realize that it’s not just me that that has a “dark†(if you want to call it that) side—I’m now beginning to think that most everyone does, in one form or another. After all, we’re all complex, multifaceted humans with all kinds of interests, passions, and desires in life. Life would surely be boring if we were all one-dimensional beings with one-layer deep thoughts and emotions!
, to the point my wife definitely knows about my feminization kink now. At this point I'm not sure how much of it was unintentional and how much of it was kind of wanting to be found out. Last month was quite a bit of mistakes on my part. The biggest one however was her discovering my false mink eyelashes on the nightstand beside our bed, which I couldn't play off. So I came clean, like showing her pictures clean. Which she had a laugh but as far as any changes and from what she told me she seems completely unbothered by it.
I had a user on Reddit the other day tell me about what "AGP" is, and as I researched it I feel like it's awakening mysteries about me that I never thought of. I'm not attracted to guys but I'm really attracted to myself in female form and doing tasks or putting myself in situations in that form that wouldn't be kosher at all in guy form. However it's not like something that I feel I absolutely "have" to do. Much like my general self bondage sessions before I started doing this I pretty much set a date and a scenario for myself to act out. Once I'm fulfilled, I clean up, pack up, and go back to my regular day. For me, it's like a adventure to a fantasy land for a couple hours to get away from my normal life.
Also, finding out how many more people have "alternate sides" to them behind closed doors and how they deal has in a way empowered me to be more accepting of this. Once I had a huge guilt, but now I feel like I'm actually being myself. Not a sexually confused guy that doesn't know what he wants, but a guy that knows what he wants; just that what he wants is something that to many circles would be considered "complicated" but not necessarily as uncommon as previously thought.
I am a bit miffed today though. I had a long haired wig, a nice suspender skirt, a white tube top, and actual jiggly breastforms with knee high socks! I was so freaking snack, but in doing my self bondage session I forgot to hit the record button!!
I did a few pictures of the beforehand but damn those breast forms had me looking sexy during the self hogtie. Ah well, there's always next month...