CHAPTER 208 - THE PHONE CALL
Thursday, May 21 (5:00 PM)
"Hey, what's up?" the sound of my boyfriend's gruff voice greeted me as I dialed his number and waited for him to pick up.
I was a bit taken aback by his morose tone, but then realized that I was using Shawn's number and that Nick probably wasn't expecting me to be on the other end of the line.
"Hi. It's me." I answered, curling up on Shawn's bed and speaking in a soft tone while hugging my knees close to my chest.
The instant Nick recognized my voice and realized who was calling him, his tone changed.
"Babe! Hey! How's my baby-boy doing?" he asked, suddenly managing to put on a joyful-sounding faΓΒ§ade.
Don't get me wrong, I knew he was genuinely happy to hear the sound of my voice.
But I also knew that his cheerfulness was only an act. As usual, he wanted to keep me out of harm's way.
Which inevitably meant keeping me in the dark and pretending everything was okay, even when they weren't.
"I'm okay, Sir. What about you? Are you okay? How's your mum?" I asked, feeling too sad and too apprehensive to ask about his aunt's condition.
There was a short pause and then I heard him sigh.
A definite indication that he was the bearer of grim news.
"I'm okay, don't worry. My mum is just shaken up. Hum...yeah, my aunt passed away during the night." he told me, speaking slowly but keeping his voice steady in an effort to have me believe he was okay.
It was very hard to get a glimpse of his state of mind over the phone, but I knew my boyfriend well enough to know that the loss was hurting him more than he was willing to admit.
You remember back at Brad's cottage, when Nick had tied me up, blindfolded me and driven me out into the woods at night?
He left me in his truck and set his tent up without my knowing.
He wanted to surprise me and take me away from Brad's cottage so that I could get my first fucking, outdoors, under the stars.
He wanted to make it extra special for me.
But when I broke down into tears and revealed to him how afraid I'd been and how I thought he was just gonna leave me tied up and dump me somewhere, I'd inadvertently driven a dagger through his heart.
Nick didn't say much.
But he didn't need to.
I knew him so well.
What I told him that night must've pained him a great deal.
And he was going through something similar now.
He and his aunt weren't that close, but I knew her passing would still leave a void and pain my lover more than he was willing to admit.
"Nick...Nick I'm so sorry." I whispered, holding the phone real close to my left ear and curling sideways so that the opposite side of my face was resting on Shawn's pillow.
"It's okay, Steven. She's been suffering for a long time. It's uhm...it's actually better this way." Nick spoke, no doubt trying to make sense of all this and attempting to see his aunt's passing in a somewhat positive light. "Wherever she is, she's at peace now." he added, before quickly changing the subject and focusing his attention back to me.
"Babe. Are you okay if I leave you with Shawn for another day?" he asked, this time speaking in a slightly less subdued tone, as if trying to regain his composure.
"Yeah...I'll be okay."
*Sniff*
"Nick? I miss you." I whimpered, bringing a hand up to my face so that I could dry up the set of tears that were welling up in my eyes.
The sound of my boyfriend's smooth, masculine voice was like honey to my ears.
He had only been gone for two days, and already I longed to be back in his arms again.
"I miss you too, babe." he sighed.
"I uhm...I just need to stay with my mum for a bit longer. She's gonna some need help getting through this." he continued, my acute hearing quickly recognizing the sound of mental fatigue in my hunky man's voice. He was exhausted, probably as a result of not being able to get much sleep over the past two days.
Poor Nick, I thought to myself.
"I know, Sir. I understand."
"You looking forward to seeing your little friend Jeremy this weekend?" he asked, instantly causing a sparkle of joy to light up inside of me.
"We're still going?" I asked, genuinely surprised at the fact that Nick had no intention of postponing our meetup with Zack.
"You bet we are! We might be a bit late, but we'll be packing up and leaving to join them as soon as I get back. Alright, boi?"
"Yes, Sir! I can't wait to see you again, Sir." I answered, positively thrilled and greatly looking forward to our upcoming camping trip with Zack and Jeremy.
As much as I loathed my boyfriend's sexual stamina and feared his seriously oversized manhood, I couldn't wait to crawl in that crazy fat sleeping bag of his and spend the night safely tucked underneath his powerful torso and huge, muscular arms.
Nick and I spoke for a good ten minutes after that.
I didn't have much to tell him and he didn't have much to say. But that didn't matter.
He inquired as to whether or not I was okay with Shawn and asked whether I was getting along with his cousin's roommates or not.
Of course, I told him everything was fine and purposefully left out the part about Shawn having blackmailed me yesterday morning.
I wanted to tell him what his cousin had done, but given what my boyfriend was going through right now, I decided to remain silent.
News about my altercation with Shawn would have to wait for a later date.
And even then, I was still unsure about whether or not I actually wanted to tell my boyfriend about it.
Knowing Nick the way I did, he'd probably be infuriated at his cousin and ban him from ever seeing me again.
And while such a strong reaction from my lover would serve to flatter my ego a bit, I couldn't help but wonder;
Is that something I truly wanted?
Did I truly want to bar Shawn for the rest of my life?
Sure, I didn't particularly love the guy. But I
had grown at bit fond of him over these past two days.
He was very different from Nick, and yet, so very much alike.
I couldn't quite put my finger on why, but Shawn reminded me a lot of his older cousin back when he and I were not romantically involved.
He was perhaps a little less extroverted and less socially confident than Nick, but the college jock's personality still bore a striking resemblance to that of my lover.
The fact that I found Shawn's physique a little alluring and the fact that I enjoyed the sight and company of his muscular roommates, also acted as a sort of clouding agent in my decision-making process.
As much as I abhorred what he had done to me, I guess I sorta
liked him a little bit.
I was definitely willing to consider brushing the blackmail episode under the carpet if he provided me with a heartfelt apology.
But until I made my mind up and until things started settling back down with Nick, I'd have to keep Shawn's misguided behaviour a secret.
The ball was in his park.
But for once, I was the one who'd have the final say.